I can't believe summer is OVER! Its almost depressing. But, i am excited, if a little nervous to start college tomorrow, can definitely say, i am not looking forward to the wake up call at 5.45am!!! I barely manage to drag myself out at 7am, so that'll be interesting, if not, a battle!
Its hard to believe, that this time last year, i could have been finishing my AS/A2 levels, but i didn't because i bailed. Sometimes, when i look at all my friends about to embark on new adventures at University, i wish i hadn't left and wasted a year doing sod all, but now i can have another chance at things, and with any luck, this time in two years, i shall be preparing to go to university. That is what i most look forward to. This year, its not about making friends, and changing myself to meet the expectations of others, its about doing the thing thats right for me, walking down the right path that will eventually lead me to the place i want to be most, university. WISH ME LUCK!
Its also, around this time, especially now, because i'm embarking on a new adventure at a whole new college, that i wish with my all heart that my grandma was here, to see me do it. She probably would not have been happy about how i handled my decision to leave the Sixth form, but i do know that she would want to see me succeed and be happy, and walking into the institute for the first time, i felt a true change in the atmosphere, and i felt happy. Which is a different feeling to how i was at the sixth form.
My brother's rugby has just started, and i was abit annoyed that i've now had to cancel all my plans with someone, because he has rugby and no-one's here. This is one of the things i can think of that annoy me about his rugger commitments. The fact that my social life during the week has to be disrupted in order to accomodate his rugby. I mean, he used to moan, because he had to go to all the evening performances i had with Drama at St bens, during the week, but i haven't, up till now, moaned, or got upset about his rugby. If anything, when i'm free, i have become more involved, and do go to a couple of games and training session. I embrace it, rarely do i moan. But trying to see various friends before uni, is one thing i must moan about, as some are going far away, so i won't see them so much.
Speaking of my little brother, i think puberty is beginning to hit. He's becoming so grumpy and moody lately. Definitely turning into a teenager. Though, i can't believe, that when he goes back tomorrow, he will be in Yr 10, and will have only two years left at St Bens. That is just sooo scary!!!!!!! My little brother, will no longer be a "little brother" :(. hahaha!
Well, i have to go now, i'm in the midst of cooking dinner. Got the house to myself this evening as the brother is rugby-ing tonight in Stowmarket and won't be back till about half 9/ 10pm tonight. Bit of a random concoction for dinner. Two Bird's eye crispy chicken in some french bread with salsa! Had to improv, with what was in the fridge and freezer, haha!
CiaoCiao
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