I wish life had a 'skip' button..

Sometimes, i wish that life came with a) instructions and b) a remote.

The remote would come in dead handy for when skipping things you don't really want to do.

I don't mean idiotic things like exams, cause yeah, they stress you out majorly, but you kinda need them for your future and all.

But i mean you could use to skip, or pause things that you don't want to see happen.

Like Earthquakes, Tsunami's, gang wars, Territorial wars, even death of a loved one.

Thats what i could really use a remote for now, death of a loved one.

I haven't attended a funeral of someone majorly close to me sing 2006.

I know i have to be strong, not only for myself, as i'm reading, but also for the wife, son and daughter, of the deceased.

Its going to be one of the hardest days of my life, Friday 24th June.

And i'm not looking forward to it.

But he was a great, intellectual, intelligent, caring man. A true Gentleman. 

And that is the way he will always stay.

Love, Always!

x

The Waiting Game....

I really hate playing the waiting game. I'm really not the most patient of people.

Waiting is so boring.

There's a limit to how many times you can look at a TV screen, or potter around the garden making useless changes that no-one's gonna see.

Finding something to do when you have the house to yourself, can have the effect of inducing the risk of insanity. 

I'm bored sitting here, waiting.

Sitting here waiting for my mobile to avidly starting vibrating happily away. Letting me know someone is calling me. The person i want, i need, to call.

I am awaiting to here from a possible job prospect - before you all get over-excited and think i'm waiting for a secret lover - No such luck there, i'm afraid.

They were supposed to get back to me last week, but the woman who interviewed me had some family emergency, so i had to stick it out for another week. The word PAIN springs to mind.

Waiting here, sucks.

I really want them to call, i really want this job, and yes i need the money as does every other young person between the ages of 16-19, but i also want this job, because i found one i might actually really enjoy and love doing. And those jobs don't come around often!

WISH ME LUCK!!!!

Magic a Myth? Or Magic and Illusion?

Ok, so I was just watching The Sorcerers Apprentice, the one with Nicolas Cage in? And you know the bit where Horvath meets that Drake stone guy? Well, that got me thinking....


Is magic a myth? Illusion? or a Truth?


Is what Darren Brown does an illusion? Trick of the mind? or Real?


I don't know whether to believe in it or not. I'd like to, but at the same time, it does seem a little far fetched. A nice idea though!?!


You know, you lot are gonna have to help me out here, is it real of not? Personally, the more I watch Darren Brown, the more i think, it has to be a trick of the mind, or an illusion, but then sometimes i sit and wonder, if it really is REAL?


Tell me what you think, add a comment saying what you think magic is?


(Also sorry, i haven't blogged in a while, things have been a little craaazy down here! You guys know what life is like, right?!?)

Today's a slow day...

Today's a slow day because......

Today's a slow day, because its grey out,

Today's a slow day, 'cause today, were all full of doubt.

The day is long today, sad news changes things,

We remember you, every time that bell rings.

Today's a sad day because.....

Today's a sad day because, someone is missing,

Although, somewhere I hope you're still a-listening?

The day is sad today, there's nothing to say,

I wish you didn't go, I wish you could stay.

Today's a long day because.....

Today's a long day because, we don't where to go,

Stuck in the time's of the day, stuck in a state of limbo.

The days hard today, no-one knows what do,

What to say, its like suffering from terrible flu.

Today's a new day because.....

Today's a new day because, we learn to carry on,

We know its hard, but know it has to be done.

Today a new life begins, for we know when the time does arrive,

We can find the strength to say goodbye, you will see.

That we will all survive.

(For Phil Larchet, Always with us. 9th June 2011)

A different headspace.

I think, following the sad passing of my dear friend and neighbour Phil.

Everyone's head is in a very weird head space.

None of us know, what to say, or do.

None of us know what to think.

Whether to sleep, or occupy ourselves.

The weird thing, is that tomorrow. We're expected to go about things as normal.

But every time, I look at the front door and across the road.

All can think about, is who won't be there any more.

How can "life" throw things at us everyday, and expect us to pick ourselves up and just continue.

I feel like i want press pause on life's remote, and just wait here for awhile, let it all soak in.

Have you ever had a similar feeling?

Like you want to live in limbo, while you figure out what you're supposed to do next.

Well, join the crew, this is where me, and my metaphorical elephants are right now.

We'll be here awhile i suspect, so if you wanna pay us a visit, feel free.

The more the merrier I guess.

Not for too long though, we need to carry on, but just for a little?

When life turns from the track...

Remember yesterday when i spoke about metaphorical elephants.

Well mine, has now continued down the path, the inevitable path that one day we all take.

I had hoped the elephant would linger, even just till this evening, but it seems that the elephant had vacated its spot earlier this morning. I wasn't expecting, yet.

I was thinking about this earlier. Its a rather depressing fact, well actually, its not if you think about it the happier way.

I was thinking about how weird it is that, technically, how we "all live to die".

Its like from birth, we are given the chance to live our lives a million colourful ways, and in doing so, we are leaving behind colourful footprints of ourselves. 

If you choose not to live your life, then it is your choice. But even in the darkest of times, there is always a light that can be found, shining through. You just have to find the courage within yourself to search for it, grasp it, and follow it.

I'm going to take my light, from this momentary dark spot, grasp it, and follow down a path. This path, will slowly mend the hole that has been left in our hearts, and slowly but surely, we will recreate those colourful footprints, that our Phil made. We will walk along side them, and create new ones.

Rest In Peace Phil. I shall never forget you.

My love, ALWAYS.

x

"When the shit hits the fan.... Get a tent."

No matter which way you turn, life always has a sneaky way of  coming up and throwing a huge elephant in the way. Life then says, you can either, stand and let the elephant do its thing, or you can make the first move and negotiate your way around it.

Sometimes, this elephant can be an evil little bugger. I have an elephant in my life right now. Metaphorically, of course. Going round this metaphorical elephant is easier said then done. With my elephant, there is no easy route. All pathways out, are the same. Except one. This one involves a happier ending tinged with sadness.

And, although i wish i could find a better path for all concerned, the route i have to take is inevitable. But i can't help feeling guilty, because whilst i'm escaping the elephant, my neighbours are running straight into it. You see the elephant in question, is death. My neighbours, have no option but to face this elephant head on, and while i'm attending interviews, hoping to land this job. Everyday i'm out of my house i feel guilty, because it means that my neighbour has no one to turn to if something should happen sooner rather than later.

I hate metaphorical elephants. Have you had a situation like this before, where you are conflicted about whether its right for you to feel guilty? Let me know, i need help here people?!

xxxx